just to blog out my feeling.. hmms.. kinda feel tires.. as in not enuff sleep ta kinda of tired.. its kinda heart feel terribe tires.. hmms.. ii really begin dono how to believe and understand my parents thinking anymore.. to my mom,ii seems to be the stupiest child in her mind.. bro seems to be clever den mie in studies in other ways.. she dotes on bro more den mie.. dis few days mom seems to be strange.. she like wana find quarrel w mie lidat.. ii don wana quarrel want to quarrel w her.. kinda no mood to quarrel w her.. some more its stupid to quarrel.. jus giv each other pple one kinda black faces only.. went outing together.. ii hav work.. finishes quite late.. as in ta friday adrian sent mie down to bedok.. half way through traffic jam, mom keep calling mie.. she like suspect ii hav boyfriend.. lols.. wher ii did explain to her.. she kinda don believe.. so ii don wana want to talk to her.. what fer talk to her where she don believe mie.. pointless.. wastn of tyme.. she keep on repeating ta ii hav freedoms in making frens.. bt don ever do those stupid thing.. what stupid thing ii hav done before.. say more also no use as she don believe mie.. she only believe bro in her mind.. whatever bro does its rite.. ii does its wrong.. so ii seldom talk to her dis few days.. ii talk to her lata she quarrel w mie.. must as well keep in silence.. don talk.. keep quiet.. jus admit its my fault even though ii am rite w d task.. she keep complaining ta ii keep spending money.. bt its my money ii spent.. she din even sponsor money fer mie whn ii am out wrking.. she jus sponsor mie once or twice fer my transportations money.. d rest of money ish ii sponsor money de lehs.. she even said ii neva save money whn ii was wrking outside.. how to save money where ii everyth spent my own money?? kinda don understand.. father say my temper gettn from poor to worse and worse to worsen.. what ish the main reason cause of it?? ii dono.. perphap gettn difficulties to communicate w euu all.. cos euu all don unerstand my thinking.. ii tried to controlled bt its euu all every tym wana find quarrel w mie.. bt no worries.. ehatever eu all does,ii will keep silence.. ii wont say anyth out.. even ii am wrong or rite.. everyth will be in silence.. jus ta its my money ii spent.. ii hav freedoms overall.. ii din rest fer few weeks, of cos will feel tired.. mom at there say ii everyday tired.. lols.. ii work from what tym to what tym.. one week 7 days continue wrking.. no rest.. ii can wrk till ii fall.. ii also don wana wan to stay at home to see ur nagging.. nag non stop.. even at home also cant rest well.. so don nds to rest also ok.. tell her ii feel head giddy.. she also din said anyth.. same goes to father.. tell him also no use.. so keep in heart ish good.. den father say ii everyth don tell him.. tell euu all fer what.. euu all also don care what ii am sayg.. jus ignore mie only.. so waste tym and effort talking to euu all.. don understand at all.. even my father ii trust d most, sum tym its beginning hard to communicate w also.. think what ii nds most ish not rest.. its not freedoms also.. bt its 'SILENCE' ii nds most.. no one understand mie at all.. even my grandmom.. father ta side de grandmom loves guys more den girls.. my mom ta side de grandmom she ish ok.. she cares fer us equally.. perphap my whole family ish bias.. not sure.. if ii hav e capital,ii wish to moves out.. more freedoms more everyth.. nothing can be controlled.. life ish much more happier den rite now ii havg.. although like dis do its hurtful to my parents. bt its much more beta den stayg together always quarrel,always giv attitude fer mie and everyone to see.. hmms.. overall.. as in still deciding.. not so sure =) back from home its tiring.. ii don wana goes back to an uncomforatble home where its non stop nagging etc.. ii wan an comfortable and peaceful home.. as ii know,dey are still my parents.. and ii will still respect dem even though ii prefer silence..
friends; ii am sorry.. forgive mie on my attitude.. ii will try to controlled it.. if ii hav d tym wher ii cant be able to controlled.. pls forgive =) as ii dono why ii will turn into like dis.. bt ii promised.. will controlled and chnge..
perphap too stressful or too much pressure.. what to do? where now ii have lots of burdens?.. driving? money? freedoms? friends? working? families? ah.. dono lahs..
life ish going through an day passing an day.. no matter what problems eu facing,eu also hav to enjoy ur life..
