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Saturday, June 28, 2008

date : 29.06.2008

back to work,everyone seems not v happy.. pulled d face in working.. as fer mie. stuck w bunch of work.. arggh..ii'm tired=) ii am scared.. tmn ish my tp.. my second tym.. ii v scared,although ii seems to be improved in my practical drivin lesson.. bt whn ii starts to nervous.. thing will turn out to be messy.. yanling.. relax.. jia uu.. k?.. hopefully ii can pass.. anyway.. will jia uu.. nervous jus get lost.. hmms.. jia uu..

Blogged @ Saturday, June 28, 2008
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some how memories are sweet thing that kept inside ur heart like an bottle of sugar..
whn the bottle of sugar ish kept proberbly inside ur heart w an lid closed tight..
everything closes up w sweet,fragrance memores which uu cant forget..
whn the lids losen, everything starts to disappeared bit by bits into the air..
catch the memories uu had before the lids losen..
once its being losen,everything ish already past..
and uu cant gain back the sweet memories of urs..
once its gone,its gone..
uu want catch back its also pointless,useless..
treasure all the memories uu had..

some tym ii had ta stupid thinking.. ii always though ii can giv up on uu aft its already pass so long.. bt overall,ii always bluff myself.. iindsuuandmissesuulots,iindsuutobebymyside.

even tym closed the lids of the bottles
the lids will still be an loose
no matter how hards the lids closed.
the scar of hurts ish always there
no matter how much sweet memories uu had,
tyme still wont bring it along.

ii nds uu

ii miss uu

ii love uu
ii cant afford to leave w/o uu

Blogged @ Saturday, June 28, 2008
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cousins w 2 nephew

ling.kai.bbjavier.yun

ling.kai.yun

wah.white tiger.lols.

bbjavier.muacks.

cousins w shawn.

ling and siowhui.

Blogged @ Saturday, June 28, 2008
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date: 28.06.2008

din went to work today.. hmms.. havg mc.. reason was too tired.. bt at home was superb bz.. arggh.. tmn must go work again.. lols.. siianx.. at home tym pass v v de fast man.. arggh..

Blogged @ Saturday, June 28, 2008
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Thursday, June 26, 2008

date: 27.06.2008

shld be going home early today due to driving lesson at 5.55pm.. yanling jia uu..
mitn jingxi,yeeling and irene at amk central tonitex at 830pm.
jia uu jia uu jia uu.
yanling!!

date : 26.06.2008

driving lesson. scared,worried and panic. monday coming nearer.mitn aunti at bugis.went walk walk,pray and headed down to bedok. hmms.afternoon went down to pray to grandpa,godpa,cousin.stayed at bedok d whole day.aunti treat mie drink my fav e thirty three.yesterday drink 2 bottles @ 8.4%.kinda drunk ii guess where ii dono what ii am talking whn ii reaches home.parents said dey hav no ideas what ii am talking.blur=)bt ii know ii sms bb and talk a lots of nonsence to him in sms where ii really can said ii hav no ideas in that.jus keep on sms said ii lurb uu and what patch back.arrggh..morning den realise ii sms him all those thing wher ii hav really no ideas in that.hmms..dear,sorry wors..every tym whn ii am drunk, ii jiu feel lik smsing uu.ii dono why although we hav broken up.sorry. anyway,uu try to get used to it ba cos not first tym liiaos lers..iistillmissesuulots..

date : 25.06.2008

just work work work everyday=) finish work headed back to amk grandmom house and back home at 9pm plus.

Blogged @ Thursday, June 26, 2008
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Monday, June 23, 2008

date : 24.06.2008

today really feel tired wors.. arggh.. dis few days not feeling well.. will suddenly feel head giddy.. aft taken dinner will feel like vomiting.. arggh.. dono why?? lols.. yesterday went down to bedok to collect my new spect.. hmms.. saw bb and andrew.. hmms.. dey all talk to mie.. idoit andrew keep asking mie whn ii being sacked by my boss.. lame..=) every tym same questn.. bb also follwed him asked miie.. siianx.. ok lahs.. hav an private talk w andrew.aft ta w an aunti.. talk w bb also.. andrew asked mie whn ii hav given birth since an week ago ii wear full dress.. lols.. bt ii enjoyed talking to dem.. heex=) if ii were to chose betwn bb and ah jie. ii confirm will chose bb although he hurt mie before=) overall he understand mie d best..
yesterday nitex was fun.. heex =)

Blogged @ Monday, June 23, 2008
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Sunday, June 22, 2008

date : 23.06.2008

oh,mine.. why gimmie dis kinda of tasks to do?.. asked mie to giv staff warming?.. arggh.. ii'm not ta fierce and dey don scared mie.. how to?.. arggh.. jus used my tone of speech to talk to him and asked him don be late anymore.. make mie in diff spot.. ii'm in middle,boss in left hand side, staff in right hand side.. arggh.. diff spot =) ii v xing ku wors.. morning wake up.. my old illness come back. so long din cum back.. shld be 2 months don felt pain lers.. bt today morning felt pain.. shit =) stand v diff, sit also.. worse ish walked also.. forget to bring my medicine along=) so bought an box of panadol w mie.. jus in case,afternoon it become worse again.. ii dono why it will become pain again? izit my sleeping position? arggh.. my dad asked mie take half day off to see doctor.. bt ii jus kinda don like to see doctor.. (everyone know why ii dislike seeing doctor)**LOLS**..damn dislik.. =) its like wan my life to go see doctor.. hmms.. if panadol can stopped my pain,ii jiu don want to go see doctor in d late afternoon liiaos lers.. hopefully its'L work.. bless mie=) hmms.. ii felt scared going into bgr.. really cos of twice relationship.. don force mie ler,hao ma?

zen zen,2 years old lers today..

tym flies.. zen already 2 years old..

hmms, HAPPY 2th YEARS OLD BIRTHDAY TO ZEN..
ZEN MUST BE AN GOOD BOI TO YOUR MOM AND DAD!!

Blogged @ Sunday, June 22, 2008
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Saturday, June 21, 2008

******** if today hav tym, will upload pict from the zoo**************

date : 22.06.2008

its was raining.. zzz.. saw the fucking boss car morning havg breakfast.. ii quickly turn my head away.. ii know ii was late fer work.. bt ii purposely walked even slower.. cos big boss not ards.. so ii take my own sweet tym to walked to office.. see how uu wan mie to do.. ii kinda 'kan ni bu shun yan'.. who asked uu always find all those stupid stuff fer mie to do; who asked uu to pop mie w so hard de strength instead of calling my name; or keep calling my name non stop; pple buy thing using nets and visa,uu kinda don wan to help mie even though ii am damn bz bt other boss will help;whn ii was bz, help mie to answers d phone also wont die,bt uu refused.*wtf* keep using my com to check ur shares weather its rising a not.. *lols* neva wear uniform jiu keep on saying want deduct my salaries.. deduct lahs.. think ii scared arhx.. uu must as well sacked mie.. ii more happy.. see uu cum office totally spoilt my mood..*lols* ii can rite an diary about uu, cos ii got lots of thing to said bout uu and damn sickening and angry whn ii talk bout uu.. say ii cant take off from friday - sunday.. *WTF* uu can tak tym fer ur families wheras ii cant... ii cant possible cos of dis job hack care my families and my frens ba.. shit.*fuck* uu don like ii take fri-sun.. ii purposely take off den.. see what uu can do mie..

date : 21.06.2008

yesterday went to malaysia shopping w irene,jingxi and my bro. hmms.. went to skuda giant.. at ther bro bought malaysia ringit 40.00 of dvds.. bought all english show.. hmms.. mie bought one cds of jay chou.. heex =) bought 2 shorts, one make of jeans de and one soft materials.. wear ler v comfortable.. hahas.. so bought it.. all short short de.. hmms.. costs mie ringit 70.00.. bro bought one shirt and one bermu costed him ringit 140.00.. went to city square to catch an movie.. we watched 'GET SMART'.. nice and funny show.. at first its was an blur show.. middle ish quite ok.. overall,its good.. went back home quite late cos of someth pop up by irene.. hmms.. long stories =) hmms.. its fun.. we bought all d stuff we want.. *muackx*.. cant sleep wors aft ah jie called mie asked mie someth.. again the old topic.. arggh.. think ii 1 plus den sleep.. morning wake up was tired..

Blogged @ Saturday, June 21, 2008
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Thursday, June 19, 2008

date : 20.06.2008

begin to dislike the small little boss.. *wtf*.. asked him to come down to office to help out tmn d 21.06.2008 which ish the sat.. he said ii cant take off from friday to sunday.. as he said lots of pple.. why cant ii take off on fri - sun ?.. uu can take off day to accompany ur families, why can ii ?.. ii also hav parents which ii nds tym on dem also.. ii cannot cos of job hack care dem..!!! ii respect u as my boss den ii tell uu de. if not ii will hack care uu.. don make feel irritatn of uu.. uu don allow mie to off on fri to sun rite?.. ii can said ii will purposely off on fri to sun the next month of july.. make uu feel frustrated and irritatn of mie.. uu want uu can sack mie.. no prob de =) more happy =p den ii can go find others job ta don hav ta nds to wrk on weekends.. and ii hav more tym on frens and families.. also wont see uu dis fucking boss face.. *yucks*.. delay my salaries haven gimmie.. **what the** say more will angry..
working hours v long..

Blogged @ Thursday, June 19, 2008
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

date : 19.06.2008

oops.. shit.. my driving lesson gettn worse.. every teacher said my parallel parking ish much more better den my vertical.. o.o.. my.. damn scared ii'l fail my practical d second tym on d 30th june.. shitt!! ii hope ii can pass lehs cos ii really spent a ltot of money onto my driving lesson liiaos lers =) praying hard, yanling will pass.. jia uu,dear=) argh ** YANLING JIA YOU!!** everyth ish ok.. jus why vertical has mistakes??? why??

saw andrew yesterday, andrew like always asked mie d same questn.. asked mie whn ii going to be sacked by my boss.. lols.. he like hoping mie to lose d jobs.. argh.. ii wont sacked by my boss de.. only ii sacked boss=) lols.. ex bb msg mie yesterday nitex.. asked mie to take care.. ii stopped at his house bus stop yesterday.. ii regain a lots of memories ii had w him.. startn to miss him and d memories we had =) still remember once we mit up w jun at his house bus stop there passing jun his present.. wah.. a lots of memories ii can said.. bt everyth ish an pass.. =)

II SAW COUSIN BIN AT DHOBBY GHAUT YESTERDAY W . . . . . .
YOU SHLD KNOW ,BIN.. AHAHS..
RELAX,II WONT SAID!!!

Blogged @ Wednesday, June 18, 2008
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

date : 18.06.2008

yesterday went down to grandmom house.. hmms.. tym flies.. its been an week plus since ii last go down yesterday =) suddenly dono why, though of past d memories.. hmms.. grandmom said, ii looked v tired.. she asked mom to make 'yang sheng' to drink.. ee.. yucks.. ii don lik.. ii don kinda like to drink dis sort of thing.. dono why.. lols.. hmms.. 9 plus went down to yishun.. mom bought mie an jeans.. hahas.. $20 only.. bt its ok.. appreciate it lots! =) thanks lots.. aft ta jiu went home.. bathe,watch tv.. den zzzzzzz tym..

morning again wake up late.. zzz.. mom ta side de grandmom wake mie up.. siianx.. yesterday she wake mie up.. today she also.. ahah =) today half day work.. hmms.. going bedok lata.. finding bro fer an conversations.. kinda got thing to talk to him as its urgent & important.. hmms.. driving lesson starts at 5.55pm tonitex.. yanling jia uu jia uu jia uu =)

Blogged @ Tuesday, June 17, 2008
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Monday, June 16, 2008

date : 17.06.2008

yesterday 2 boss sent mie down to bedok.. cos ii wana go down to bedok to make an new spect.. hahas.. spent $320.00 on my new spect.. bt quite nice.. do the black colour flames.. as ii think black colour will make mie feel smarter and a bit obedient.. lols.. aunti accompany mie.. go down there an new shop.. hahas.. again saw the the pple there ish the shop from amk de east champ.. aargh.. mit the same pple again.. =) we had ann v long chat there.. hmms.. the ladies who always help mie do spect ta wan iish pregnant.. hahas.. congrats wors =) hmms.. aunti do spect costs $88.00 , the lao hua yan jing.. went back to bedok,father's stalls.. hmms.. yesterday seems indeed no business.. ah.. how come arhx?.. what ish wrong? why no business? what really happened? aunti seems stress and worried for the business thing,ii can see.. cos everyone also can sense it.. why izit ta pple nowadays are gettn lesser and lesser eatn duck rice.. wher pple are increasing eatn chicken rice?.. y y y ?.. econmy ish gettn bad and bad everydays =) ii wear full dress down to bedok yesterday.. din get to see him lahs.. hmms.. andrew said ii seems to be preganant whn ii wear full dress.. arghh.. no boyfriend how to? and ii also don want so early get pregnant as an kids wil tied down all ur freedoms even though ii lik kids a lot.. sorry, this sentence means no harms to all young parents , ii am sorry =)

*** actually ii put passwords to it cos of sum personal reason**

yAnLiNg aKa rAchEl.

ii sincerely hope business at bedok will increased.so ta everyone don hav ta nds to worried for it.. cos whn business not really good, eu hav to worried for money problems.. nds to settle workers salaries as all workers are own relatives, goods money, stall rental, pub-electricity,water bills.. etc.. some more rental ish not cheap.. hoping business will increase..

yAnLiNg aka rAchEl.

Blogged @ Monday, June 16, 2008
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Sunday, June 15, 2008

date : 16.06.2008

as stated yesterday ta my house was havg an celebrations of father days at my house w my 2 grandmom.. hmms.. was havg steam boat=).. hmms.. started at 1930pm and ends at 2045pm.. aft ta, dey went down to my house downstairs and do exerise.. ii tag along w my bro and my parents.. including my 2 grandmom and maid.. ahah.. aft wish, 2100plus.. went back to my house.. damn shit.. ii vomited.. yucks.. dono why?.. mom said mayb once ii finish eatn ii jiu went down do exercise.. so siianx.. morning wake up still a bit uncomfortable.. hack care.. tonitex going bedok do spect and mayb going fer drinkin w aunti.. favourite.. E THIRTY THREE.. ahah.. hmms.. today wear full dress to work.. ah.. cos ii v hot.. bt boss said nds to chnge.. luckily ii bring an white colour short along.. so bo bian.. chnge lo.. ma fan.. lata finish work,still nds to chnge it back.. ah.. bt good news ish my dad and my uncle like d shirt ii get fer dem.. hahas..

**will ii get to see him tonitex whn ii goes down to bedok?**
**will he talk to mie?**
**will he ignore and hack care mie?**

Blogged @ Sunday, June 15, 2008
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Saturday, June 14, 2008

date : 15.06.2008

work liiaos lers.. off days really pass v fast man.. hmms.. head still feel giddy wors.. perphap really not enuff rests.. today mom neva work.. really has an feeling ta she followed mie to work.. siianx=) if she really followed mie, means she still unable to trust mie.. ii guess.. or mayb ish ii think too much.. mayb,whose know..? off days feel happy, work jiu siianx.. hmms..
today ish FATHER's DAYS WORS!! bought yun's father an shirts at long sleeves at amk de spades shop ta costed mie $40.00 den went to basement shop at amk de natural project shop bought father an button shirts costed mie $43.00.. altogether $83.00.. bro shared w mie.. so half half each.. hmms.. anyway.. wana wish all father and my father and my uncle..

HAPPY FATHER'S DAYS

GOOD HEALTH..

STAY HAPPY AND BEST LUCK!!

we had celebrations at our home tonitex w 2 grandmom..

date : 14.06.2008

went to zoo w de again in d morning.. whole night from fri nitex till sat morning jus slept 2 hours..
wah.. head v painful de nehx.. went to interchange at causeway to tak bus.. damn shit! the bus operate only on sun and ph nia.. den no choice tak 2 cabs down.. hmms.. went walk walk in d zoo.. lots of pple yesterday man.. as its family days at the zoo.. hmms.. zoo actually changes a lots lehs.. hmms.. take a lot of photos also. will upload.. hmms.. weather ish sickening hot.. making everyone feel worse.. bt saw a lots of animals.. lols.. javier was happy man.. first tym went to d zoo.. hahas..

dey said every 2 month will gathered once.. so cousin relationship wont break=)
date : 13.06.2008

mitn yun,kai,siowhui,shawn at amk.. went down to s11 there de coffeeshop to had our dinners.. we had western fer dinners.. hmms.. 8plus we went down to interchnge to tak bus 138 to nitex safari.. hahas.. buy d 3-in-1 de tickets.. one tickets plus d trams fer d nitex safari costs 10.00.. altogether $50.00 fer d 3 in 1.. hmms.. quite enjoyable.. bt night safari has limited animals.. tooo dark.. some how a bit cant see clearly of the animals.. sum of dem hide ta eu cant even see.. get to see bats,owl,lions etc etc.. hmms..

back to yun house at 11plus.. mie went home and bathe, aft ta went yun house fer chivas till morning 630am.. went home bathe and sleep 2 hours.. mitn dem again plus javier fer zoo at 10plus..

( got take photo, will upload whn ii've ta tyme at home)

Blogged @ Saturday, June 14, 2008
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Thursday, June 12, 2008

perphap ii really hav wrong in ta also.. mayb from the start till now ii hav been misunderstanding of everyth?.. ok.. in fact, ii jus don wana talk as ii am really tired.. jus tired!! tired ish the main reason ta ii don wana talk whn ii am at home.. some more mom always nag.. jus in short, will talk whn ii hav ta kinda of mood at home and whn ii don feel ta tired-) ii promised.. ta its=)

date : 13.06.2008

father call mie in d early morning said y ii din called mom.. ii giv her an call in d morning whn ii reach office, she neva pick up.. hmms.. neva mind.. perphap she ish bz.. ii'm also not ta kinda of unreasonable and xiao qi de ren.. ii already wrote letter and place it on d table there to apologize to uu all ta my attitude and so on.. and ii writn ther also ii din angry.. ta its=) jus ta uu all wan mie to go home tonitex aft the trip to nitex safari w siowhui dey all ma, rite? ii'l go back home tonitex aft the trip..

date : 12.06.2008

yest work half day only.. so took dis chance to go down bedok to see 'her'.. fucking shit.. act like she v pretty lidat whn she saw mie.. i purposely walk pass 'her'.. she stare at mie. so i stare back lahs. what!! no nds to be scared of her de lehs wher eu did nothing wrong..

aunti and dad talk to mie.. hmms.. aunti explain sum of her thinking to mie.. its make sense actually as in mayb my parents are jus concern fer mie.. bt jus ta dey used the wrong method to shown out. anyway, ii'm not angry w dem as ii jus too tired don wana talk.. hmms.. anyway, don think ta much.. whn ii hav strength ii will talk.. keep silence at home also will giv pple misunderstanding.. ahh..

Blogged @ Thursday, June 12, 2008
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

date : 11.06.2008

the weather of the skies today ish pretty bad wors.. hmms.. reach office still doing nothing.. ahah.. v siianx wors.. feel lik sleeping wors.. ahah.. lols.. too tired lers wors.. hmms.. nowadays morning mit yun to go work together as she found an new jobs at orchards.. hmms.. at last on d journey wont be so boring.. got pple accompany.. and advantage ish wont be late fer work.. ahah.. bt ii dono why ii still unwilling to talk much whn ii was at home.. hmms.. why arhx.. lols.. really said e truth ii ownself really dono.. haix.. perphap ii'm stupid?.. who knows?..

Blogged @ Tuesday, June 10, 2008
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Monday, June 09, 2008

date : 10.06.2008

as yesterday siad everyth in silence might be an good thing fer mie.. father asked mie fer an talk yesterday.. jus unwilling to talk to him,so ii jus answers him ii v tired so unwilling to talk.. bt ii don think he believe mie as he said last tym whn ii was tired, ii will still laught and talk to dem.. bt now no.. he said ii now v de emo and if continue lidat will de 'you yu zhen'.. bt what ish the main point if ii talk to eu and mom? will eu all believe what ii said?.. mom ish gettn more supertious.. whatever ii tell her no,she will not believe.. so no point explain more.. dad say ii am her precious.. precious so what.. ii said what eu also don believe.. so dis ish so called precious.. anyway.giv mie tym ii will used to my emo life.. now whatever euu all said, ii wont said an word back.. whatever thing ii does rite bt in ur appearance ii does wrong ii also wont say anyth.. euu ask mie do what, ii will do.. ii wont say wait and later den do.. will do immediately.. emo life got emo de advantages.. at least in emo life, ii am able to know what am ii doing in myself.. at least ii know who am ii too.. the main reason to be emo ish cos no one believe mie.. ish jus ta euu all say my temper gettn from bad to worse and now worsen only.. cos euu all DON BELIEVE MIE.. ii DON HAVE E TRUST IN IT!!! siianx... life ish miserable.. and ii will be an quiet grr from now onwards..

mitn irene yest nitex at amk to pass her d book ta boss lent her.. hmms.. yest afternoon create trouble fer boss.. get d wrong key fer both customers.. both drive HONDA and ii gotten mixed up.. get customers A de keys fer customers B.. and blur ish ta customers A get d wrong key, he ish still ablt to start d engine w customers B de keys.. poor customers B could not start w customers A de key.. so boss went out to jurong de science centre to exchange keys w customers A.. ii am sorry towards customers A & B and my boss.. sorry fer d trouble ii create.. whn ii reach home its nearly 2145pm.. called jingxi and talk to her on phone,tell her the thing ii create today den she at there nag said ta eu head giddy,not enuff rest den will create trouble.. lols.. perphap yesh.. ii dono.. ling v emo..

boss sms and said he will cum in office late today.. ask mie handle.. ah.. actually ii v scared to handle.. cos ii everyth dono.. although my colleague dey all helpful and ish willing to help.. bt ii will try my best to learn whatever ii can.. a bit no mood to work as ii dono why.. restless ba..

yanling aka rachel ish gettn emo now a days..
dono why?
how ii wish ii can know why ii hav become lidat bt too bad ish ii ownself also dono why..
ii am tired !!!!!!!!
xin hen lei .....
feel like going fer an break..
**help**.

Blogged @ Monday, June 09, 2008
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Sunday, June 08, 2008

date : 09.06.2008

just to blog out my feeling.. hmms.. kinda feel tires.. as in not enuff sleep ta kinda of tired.. its kinda heart feel terribe tires.. hmms.. ii really begin dono how to believe and understand my parents thinking anymore.. to my mom,ii seems to be the stupiest child in her mind.. bro seems to be clever den mie in studies in other ways.. she dotes on bro more den mie.. dis few days mom seems to be strange.. she like wana find quarrel w mie lidat.. ii don wana quarrel want to quarrel w her.. kinda no mood to quarrel w her.. some more its stupid to quarrel.. jus giv each other pple one kinda black faces only.. went outing together.. ii hav work.. finishes quite late.. as in ta friday adrian sent mie down to bedok.. half way through traffic jam, mom keep calling mie.. she like suspect ii hav boyfriend.. lols.. wher ii did explain to her.. she kinda don believe.. so ii don wana want to talk to her.. what fer talk to her where she don believe mie.. pointless.. wastn of tyme.. she keep on repeating ta ii hav freedoms in making frens.. bt don ever do those stupid thing.. what stupid thing ii hav done before.. say more also no use as she don believe mie.. she only believe bro in her mind.. whatever bro does its rite.. ii does its wrong.. so ii seldom talk to her dis few days.. ii talk to her lata she quarrel w mie.. must as well keep in silence.. don talk.. keep quiet.. jus admit its my fault even though ii am rite w d task.. she keep complaining ta ii keep spending money.. bt its my money ii spent.. she din even sponsor money fer mie whn ii am out wrking.. she jus sponsor mie once or twice fer my transportations money.. d rest of money ish ii sponsor money de lehs.. she even said ii neva save money whn ii was wrking outside.. how to save money where ii everyth spent my own money?? kinda don understand.. father say my temper gettn from poor to worse and worse to worsen.. what ish the main reason cause of it?? ii dono.. perphap gettn difficulties to communicate w euu all.. cos euu all don unerstand my thinking.. ii tried to controlled bt its euu all every tym wana find quarrel w mie.. bt no worries.. ehatever eu all does,ii will keep silence.. ii wont say anyth out.. even ii am wrong or rite.. everyth will be in silence.. jus ta its my money ii spent.. ii hav freedoms overall.. ii din rest fer few weeks, of cos will feel tired.. mom at there say ii everyday tired.. lols.. ii work from what tym to what tym.. one week 7 days continue wrking.. no rest.. ii can wrk till ii fall.. ii also don wana wan to stay at home to see ur nagging.. nag non stop.. even at home also cant rest well.. so don nds to rest also ok.. tell her ii feel head giddy.. she also din said anyth.. same goes to father.. tell him also no use.. so keep in heart ish good.. den father say ii everyth don tell him.. tell euu all fer what.. euu all also don care what ii am sayg.. jus ignore mie only.. so waste tym and effort talking to euu all.. don understand at all.. even my father ii trust d most, sum tym its beginning hard to communicate w also.. think what ii nds most ish not rest.. its not freedoms also.. bt its 'SILENCE' ii nds most.. no one understand mie at all.. even my grandmom.. father ta side de grandmom loves guys more den girls.. my mom ta side de grandmom she ish ok.. she cares fer us equally.. perphap my whole family ish bias.. not sure.. if ii hav e capital,ii wish to moves out.. more freedoms more everyth.. nothing can be controlled.. life ish much more happier den rite now ii havg.. although like dis do its hurtful to my parents. bt its much more beta den stayg together always quarrel,always giv attitude fer mie and everyone to see.. hmms.. overall.. as in still deciding.. not so sure =) back from home its tiring.. ii don wana goes back to an uncomforatble home where its non stop nagging etc.. ii wan an comfortable and peaceful home.. as ii know,dey are still my parents.. and ii will still respect dem even though ii prefer silence..

friends; ii am sorry.. forgive mie on my attitude.. ii will try to controlled it.. if ii hav d tym wher ii cant be able to controlled.. pls forgive =) as ii dono why ii will turn into like dis.. bt ii promised.. will controlled and chnge..

perphap too stressful or too much pressure.. what to do? where now ii have lots of burdens?.. driving? money? freedoms? friends? working? families? ah.. dono lahs..

life ish going through an day passing an day..
no matter what problems eu facing,eu also hav to enjoy ur life..

RACHEL-09.06.2008**1030AM**

Blogged @ Sunday, June 08, 2008
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Saturday, June 07, 2008

date : 08.07.2008

yest nitex boss sent mie down to bedok.. hmms.. saw bb.. hmms.. act like we dono each other liday lols.. what fer=) ah.. forget it den.. say so much pointless.. everyth jus chnge in simple.. hmms.. everyone in bedok treat us v good as mie and my bro was there yest nitex.. THANKS ALL.. aunti off bt she still went down to bedok. she treated us drink beer.. my favourite.. E THIRTY THREE.. ahahs.. hmms.. boi drink spy.. aunti drink d same as mie.. my father and uncle of cos carlsberg.. no chnge.. hahas.. reach home 11 plus.. bathe lers a while.. watch tv.. 12 plus sleep.. alarms ring at 0540 am.. siianx.. wake up 630am.. bathe lers hav an nap a while.. 715am goes off to wrk.. don wish to had breakfast due to TIRED.. siianx.. even water also don feel lik drinking.. jus walk off.. reach wrking place exactly 0830am.. neva late.. so no one can said mie late fer wrk every sunda.. as ii am late fer 3 weeks of sunday.. cannot wake up lahs.. so early.. sum more tired,head giddy.. so long neva rest.. siianx.. hmms.. dono lahs.. jus know YANLING ISH TIRED!! TA IT...

Blogged @ Saturday, June 07, 2008
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Friday, June 06, 2008

date : 07.06.2008

**continue**

in office doing nothing. as today slightly no business due to the rain.. its rain d whole day.. seldom customers cum=).. boss teaches mie how to use singpass to check d cpf status.. know already.. hmms.. siianx lo.. in d office doing nothing.. everyone ish quite slack.. sum playg laptop to chat w frens using their china msn as dey called 'qq' not msn.. some gathered in d dining table there to chat.. and fadli take my phone to play games and doesnt want to return mie my phone.. boss walking ards in d office.. nothing much to do.. so siianx.. whn ther ish nothing much to do.. tym will pass slower.. bt ii find it v de uncomfortable.. head still feeling v giddy.. everyda eat outside food,dono eat what.. jus now went out to buy lunch w colleague.. only buy 2 pieces of roti prata to eat.. siianx dao dono what to eat everyday.. ah.. if don want to eat.. boss sure at ther nag.. bro went down to bedok to help out aunti liiaos lers.. also quite good.. at home more quite,more peaceful.. grandmom seldom nag liiaos lers.. cos bro v sickening.. pple ask him don do,he purposely go and do.. sum tym cannot stand it.. finally can hav rest and sum quiet tym at home these few days.. bt whn eu went down to bedok.. everyone there v dotes on mie and my bro.. dey treat us like their own children.. as their children ish all big and older den us.. sum more we v guai ma.. lols.. will go down to bedok to help out aunti.. as aunti also v dotes and loves us since we are young.. so helping her doesnt mean much.. aunti isnt an strangers.. own aunti.. so no reason to object and reject her whn she nds ur help.. hmms.. rite.. hahas.. siianx lahs.. slacking tym.. hmms.. faster go home lehs.. hmms..

YANLING LOVES FREEDOMS!!!!!!!!!
WORKING LIFE NO FREEDOMS!!!!!!!
YANLING AKA RACHEL...

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS ...

Blogged @ Friday, June 06, 2008
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date : 07.06.2008

morning wake up,the skies above ish dark.. hahas.. luckily it din rain.. only whn reachw rk place den its rain.. hahas.. heavy rain wors.. hmms.. feel v giddy today.. mayb due to not enuff sleep.. called grandmom in d morning.. she said i not enuff rest den will feel giddy.. ii chnge my off day.. all cut into half day instead of one full day.. as mitn cousin on d 14 to an outn.. dis month ish lik totally no off.. quite stressful and tiring.. july den hav an better rest..
yest went down to bedok to find aunti and father down to pray.. hmms.. hoping business will be good everyday.. talk to andrew.. andrew always like to bully mie.. his fucking boss lady there.. damn shit!! half way through talking to andrew.. she cut into our conversations.. damn rude.. den forget it.. say good bye to andrew and ii jus walked off.. ii'm sure andrew know my meaning.. boss called mie.. he say he mayb bu xiao xin press dao my number.. den ok.. he said he remind mie not to drink so much.. aft reaching home.. he sms mie say he will bring along the book fer irene den again remind not to drink so much.. sound lik my father rite.. hahas.. lols.. kidding lahs.. hahas.. mitn irene at amk today jiu went home.. going hav an early rest.. tired=)

rachel ..

**HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EX BB JEK!!**

Blogged @ Friday, June 06, 2008
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Thursday, June 05, 2008

date : 06.06.2008

yest nitex go down to yun house to hav chivas drink w kai,siowhui and bb javier.. hmms.. hav till 1am plus going 2.. morning wake up a bit tired.. head v giddy man.. ah.. boss ask mie why am ii so tired? izit ii go out play till v late or ii go drink?.. hahas.. he knows it man=) hmms.. hav an talk w boss in d noon tym.. had lunch tgt.. he told mie ta whn he ish not ards in d office,ii'm fully in charge of everyth.. stress man =) d youngest,d newest staff here.. hav to handle everyth.. stress.. ahah.. bt ii'l giv it my best shot.. best try..

azam told mie ta rudy ta bastard own mie money don wan to return.. he own mie $100.00.. he deny he borrow money from mie.. boss said ta ii too good liiaos lers,too soft hearted den will lent him.. in d end what ii hav gotten back.. spoilt my reputations man,boss said.. boss told mie ta he ish going to find him soon.. **what the** spoilt my reputations!! **cb**.. ah hui money also cant take it back liiaos lers.. lata find pple go malaysia whack eu!! *nb*.. treat us like granted.. our sweat hard money lehs.. *cb*. take ler jus run off.. *fuck sia* see once whack once.. no face given ii tell boss.. boss said he though of doing it also.. cos rudt ta bastard own him $2000.00++.. boss said cant take ta breath down.. lidat treat us!!.. knn(=..

lata in d evening,going down to bedok as mitn everyone goes down to pray..
tmn nitex mitn siowhui,yun,bb javier and shawn to nitex safari..

Blogged @ Thursday, June 05, 2008
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date : 05.06.2008

yest nitex was damn angry.. bro msg mie ask mie go down to grandmom house.. ok.. ii go down.. reach grandmom house.. nobody at home. jus left uncle at home only.. den from ther go back woodland again.. damn shit.. called bro ask him wher ish he?.. he said in father car going kallang to pray w mom,aunti and dad.. **what the** forget it.. ii go home.. jus waste d trip down.. walk to nearby fen house ther to tak bus 851 to yishun.. at yishun walk walk a while jiu take bus 969 home.. anyway.. wastn tym.. mom called,ii hang e phone.. father called mie.. hang too.. don wana talk to dem.. anyway.. din had dinners too.. jus had lunch ta boss bought in d noon at 2 jiu din eat liiaos..

today work.. superb tired.. yest nitex sleep early in order not to see dem and talk to dem.. hmms.. anyway,ii am tired.. 2 week plus no off.. countn down 6 days to off..

Blogged @ Thursday, June 05, 2008
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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

date : 04.06.2008

yest went down to compass point.. walk walk and saw one shop name emicake.. walk in and see.. wah.. sells lots of cute cute chocolates cake etc.. bought one box of d24 durians puff home.. dislik eatn durians. jus bought fer mom , dad and my grandmom to eat.. 6 pieces of durians puff costs $8.00.. hmms.. bought another mini chocolate eclair fer boss.. hmms.. the mini chocolate eclair has 12 pieces which costs $6.50.. not v ex lehs ii said.. hahas.. enjoy can liiaos lers.. hmms.. morning ii though ii will be late fer work due to trains spoilt aft sembawang mrt statn as ii stayed at woodlands.. reach dhobby ghaut.. used run to chase aft the 02 mins trains if not sure late.. ah.. jus 2 mins late only lahs.. not v late.. slack at wrk place.. nothing to do.. so free lahs.. hahas.. aft wrk going grandmom house at amk.. mom say grandmom not feeling well.. so going visit her.. sobs.. hope euu get well soon !! GRANDMOM!!

ex bb birthday coming.. shld ii sms him wish him happy birthday???

Blogged @ Tuesday, June 03, 2008
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Monday, June 02, 2008

date : 03.06.2008

irene called my boss today to ask fer an job which my boss intro her.. hmms.. boss talk to mie.. he sumerise everyth fer mie.. he said irene sound more confidence den mie.. lols.. cos ii too scared he said.. hahas.. he ( my boss) said ii shld built up confidence.. eh.. try lahs!! hmms.. was bz w work today.. not enuff staff wrking.. as sum went back malaysia and one back to china to visit his parents.. hmms.. ah jie chio go stead!! bt dono shld ii agree w it ma?.. ii scared hurts as my twice relationship ish an failure.. all gotten hurts.. yun said consider.. bt ah jie ish much more beta den my 2 ex.. he sorts of hav the same thinking as mie.. he has d diff thinking as my 2 ex.. anyway.. ii am scared.. yun told mie she ish scared too.. cos got 3-4 guy ish asking her fer stead! she said she dono who to chose as she scared and worried might hurts the others.. haix.. facing e same problems together yun.. enjoy talkin w yun cos she know my feeling and understand mie well.. know her fer 3 years lers..

Blogged @ Monday, June 02, 2008
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Sunday, June 01, 2008

thing ta ii gona say to sum to my frens

**YeeLing**

she ish an nice frens which ii know her since ii step into ITE Colledge Central Macpherson.. study the same course as her in MMT fer 2 years.. Ever since ii know her,ii slightly know how to enjoy my life.. she ish an good frens,whnever we go out shopping,she saw piglet thing,she will buy fer mie as she know ii like piglet a lots during d tym whn ii was in ite.. even my birthday,she also buy fer mie d piglet stuff which ii hav lots at home rite now.. in school,she often treat mie drink water as ii wants too. even the tasks ii havg in school,ii met w difficulties.. she will help mie out too.. sum how ii dono how to describe her.. anyway,from the day ii know her,ii begin to called her nanny.. THANKS LOTS YEELING!!.. bt whenenever ii feel lonely,she can cum out acc mie and acc mie chat on phone.. thanks.. hmms.. bt sum tym ii feel worse,ii dono why ii really cant control myself.. ii will vent out all my angers on her.. ii am really sorry.. hope euu don mind my attitude as sometym ii really think ii treat euu bad!! ii'll tried to control myself.. sorry if ii hav hurts ur feeling from the start we known each others till now.. sorry!!

yeeling,really sorry fer what ii hav done.. such as treatn euu w such an bad attitude..

bt sincerely,ii treasure e friendship betwn euu and mie.. to mie.. euu're an great frens..

bt indeed euu're an good friends to miie.. hopes our friendship will last long..

take care my frens..

to my parents.

my mom and dad loves mie alot.. especially to my dad.. from ii was small till now,euu din even beat and slap mie before.. euu only scold mie when ii does the wrong thing.. mom ish d one who always beat mie whn ii do d wrong thing or whn ii fails my exam in d young. from the stage of young to now,tym flies and ii am 20 dis years. ur guidiance from ii small to now teaches mie a lot of thing.. dad loves mie the most and mom loves boii the most.. and till now,whn ii am 20 years old.. ii still unable to sort out my own feeling and troubles.. dad always the one who ish making the decision fer mie.. ii don wana make decision cos ii don wana chose the decision ta will make myself regret such as jobs etc etc.. dad told mie once ta he waste his tym dotn mie and lurb mie since ii was young till now.. cos ii only tel him thing ii cant be able to solve on my own bt din tell him my xin shi.. he say ii got xin shi wont go find him.. euu know why ii don wana tell my xin shi to euu ma?.. cos ii scared euu worried of mie.. ii don wana want cause euu and mom to worries.. so ii chose not to tell and either put it in heart or tell my frens.. some tym euu treat mie good.. bt ii treat euu as granted!!! whnever ii feel sads or not in good mood.. euu talk to mie,ii chose not to replies or either used an not good de tone talk to euu..as ii know its hurts euu a lots.. ii'm sorry dad!! not purposely de.. cos ii really dono how to control myself from throwing temper.. ii am really sorry ta keep hurtn euu ta euu cares and love mie ta much!!! ii will try to chnge and control my self from doing ta.. whenever ii does so.. my feeling ish not good either.. will cry out de.. although some tym ii know myself ish lik an cry baby.. hav stress or what jiu feel lik crying.. bt crying ish an form fer mie to relieves stress!!... sorry ta ii hav hurts dad and mom feeling.. will controlled and wont talk to euu all in an bad mood tone..

ii love my family lots.. my mom,my dad,my bro,my grandmom..

sorry to everyone if ii hav hurts ur feeling before..

ii am really sorry!!!

Blogged @ Sunday, June 01, 2008
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date : 02.06.2008

today morning went aunti house to take the lunch.. she cook fer mie.. 'fried rice'.. she cooked de fried rice v nice.. hahas.. hmms.. thnkx aunti.. heex.. reach wrk place at 0915am.. hmms.. no one opened the doors:-) haix.. sad.. mayb going bishan lata whn finishing wrk to mit mom and dad.. yest received d cpf letters.. lols.. dono what it write lahs.. damn shit!! don understand.. leave it alone ther,don go touch it!! during working tym now. its free.. cos ii finish the thing boss asked mie to do.. so slacking tym.. hahahas.. boss went out do his thing.. so left w mie and sum staffs only.. heex.. free bt dono whatt to do.. lols.. hahas..

Blogged @ Sunday, June 01, 2008
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wah.. whole body v pain.. its gettn warmer.. could my body stand another 12-13 days den reach my off days?.. ahh.. ii dono.. my colleague say why ii today neva go talk to dem.. as ii jus received new tasks.. sortn out old customers files again.. sianx.. no mood lahs.. now tired sia whole body and lazy to move as its v painful.. wtf!!.. siianx.. hopefully can faster go home nehx.. hahahas.. hmms.. **THANKS AH JIE FER ACCOMPANYING CHAT DURING MY WRK TYM**.. THANKS TO JINGXI TOO.. HALFWAY THROUGH SHE HANG E PHONE AS SHE ISH GOING OUT W HER MOM.. ANYWAY.. THANKS.. a bit sianx wrking.. wrking life ish stressful.. bt gettn pay de mood jiu totally different liiaos.. lols.. anyway.. thnkx frens..

Blogged @ Sunday, June 01, 2008
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